Hey all!

It feels like forever since I last sat down to write a blog and share with you all my thoughts, feelings and updates. After taking six week’s holiday, from my professional career in education (my day job). Yes I have a day job, aside from pursuing my dream ultimate career in the music industry as an artist and entrepreneur. Out of all of the weeks this is the first week that I can truly say is a holiday for me lol.

For those that say you have to sacrifice and put everything into music i.e. no job, on the music grind 24/7, collecting off the government, sorry to say but this is by far not practical or fulfilling and does not guarantee you success to what you have been aiming for. Those that tend to say this is THE way; the only way and shun people who choose to support themselves whilst pursuing their music career are normally disparately seeking approval feeling at times defeated and anxious with no certainty of stability.

You may even be thinking how can I make comments so freely on this matter how could I possibly sit comfortably and make such assumptions? Well it’s because I myself have been there, done that, worn the t-shirt so to say and been around, amongst and conversed with those who have done just that. Collecting off the government (signing on) and then been on the super disparate grind of waking up, living, breathing and eating music, as there not being very much to eat at times, whilst perhaps trying to hold down semi part- time job has only made me depressed anxious cynical towards life, has indeed not brought me any closer to success and achieving my main aim. Some may argue and say but this makes you a hungrier and highly motivated person, however I am sorry to say I would have to disagree on this notion. For while you may experience these very feelings of hunger and grind you can only truly earn more capitol once you have money to begin with, money brings more money and anything else is just a fantasy and wishful thinking. I tried that life for a good 3 years and while I had some pleasant experiences I also had a lot of unnecessary hardship and longing. Not only that but my mind was closed, there was no room for growth and creative development to find opportunities and see ways of gaining as I was caught up on surviving.

I have found that by having a stable profession that brings in sufficient funds I have been able to get back good quality of living to be able to live and enjoy life rather than simply existing and make doing. In return my mind was able to be completely freely open and to see things that others were unable to see, for their eyes had become blinded by the desperation and clutching at strings.

There is I am sad to say no true recipe or formulae that fits all. Each person has their own path, their own way but what I do know is, struggling thinking that if I just get up and live music, do only music, do not go to work, do not socialize, do not give up some of my time and sacrifice in order to achieve long term. That if I suffer now and do not choose a good quality of life that somehow one day that magical break will come and I will be happy and have everything I want. Sorry to burst all bubbles but this is far from the case. The truth is you have to live NOW; you have be happy right now!! You have to make your life right now!! The pursuit of happiness is to find happiness in EVERYTHING that you do along the way along your route to success. There are too many diseases, illness misfortunes prone to all of us that can strike us down unexpectedly at any one time before we get what we truly want desire or deserve for us to make do for now. Who is to say that once you get there after going without and not find quality of life that you will be automatically happy and satisfied? Who knows if you will even be able to define that you have reached your ultimate. If to not work then find ways of earning a good living to support yourself that you can do all you need to maintain and sustain in the music business.

Well that was a rant if ever I made one lol however after not having my laptop for a good week and a half I have realized how much I if not many of us rely on modern advance technology to communicate and to make things possible.

I am thoroughly chuffed that I was able to rescue my laptop and revive it so that it is running like new and even better than before whilst rescuing all my saved files I have forcefully become a true techy and have this natural knack of finding solutions to problems so holler me lol I will say that I did ask some assistance but they all told me what I already knew and what I had already tried, thanks to my friend and radio boss Mark, he was able to hook me up with the necessary cables to back up my drive but I repeat I did this all by myself disabled my laptop got the screw driver out took out my hardrive then reinstalled all the drives and operating systems hahaaa listen to me ”NERD” well I missed my baby (Dell Insipron) but I will tell you I will not hesitate to a Apple Mac as my birthday or Christmas present. I shall be coming with a follow up blog as I still haven’t even gotten into the nitty gritty of what I have been up to and suppose to blog about however call this a pre blog and taster to say Renae Rain is back and on the writing scene

To be continued…..